Searching For A Mission

My heart has been crying out to God. Pining after a mission. Sure, I’ve been drawn to character development, helping people, encouraging them, writing, and planning. What does that mean though? As a mom, I can see all of that being exceptionally useful. As a single person or a pre-married person, what can I do? More than that, how could I make a living doing what I feel called to? Please, if you’re reading this and have a suggestion, tell me.

For now, I have been trying several things. I’m writing more. I would like to write children’s books. I’m trying new things. I want to get out of my comfort zone and continue learning. I’m applying for writing jobs online. So far, I’m unsuccessful. My writing isn’t up to par and I have no experience. I’m researching jobs in both my hometown and in Michigan. I want to know where YHWH intends for me to live.

May our Father reveal to me where He would have me be, what He would have me do, and with whom all this is to be.

Night of Prayer

Tonight is the first all-nighter I wanted to pull because I wanted to pray. This is a great experience that I recommend to you all. Though I am not done yet, I look at the start of my prayers. I felt lost, confused, burdened. Being able to confide in Him without time constraint has eased my mind.

Talking to Him about specific topics, I started to ask God specific questions: who should I talk to? what specifically should I discuss with them? I wanted more details; I wanted advice. I prayed that of all the books around me, He lead me into them as He saw fit. I read about prayers, I read about Nehemiah, I read about Esther, I read about Solomon, I read about Dr. Ben Carson, I read about Sonya Carson (Ben’s mom), and I found myself in Deuteronomy 30 after praying for wisdom and discernment.

This is what jumped out at me:

“…with all your heart and with all your soul …” I asked God what that looked like and He pointed out a couple other words found in those scriptures – obey and keep.

“For this commandment that I command you today is not too hard for you, neither is it far off.” Deuteronomy 30:11

We are to obey by: loving (God), walking (in His ways), and keeping (His commandments, statues, and rules). All these are action words – they will never cease to be active.

“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

Many times, God has told me to cast off fear. Tonight, He reminded me yet again. I must obey Him and keep His rulings. It doesn’t matter who or what arises against me, I must continue on and listen to His voice alone.

Friend Examination Finale (Pt 4)

The greatest Friend we could ever have is God.
“No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you.” John 15:15

“Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.” John 15:13
Friendship will involve sacrifice (probably not to this degree for most of us).

“You are My friends if you do whatever I command you.” John 15:14
We must obey God’s commands if we are to be His friends.

“And the Scripture was fulfilled which says, ‘Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness.’ And he was called the friend of God.” James 2:23

“Adulterers and adulteresses! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Whoever therefore wants to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.” James 4:4
We cannot be friends both of God and of the world.

Friendship Examination Pt 3

God has admonished His people throughout time to choose friends wisely.
“Make no friendship with an angry man, and with a furious man do not go.” Proverbs 22:24
“The righteous should choose his friends carefully, for the way of the wicked leads them astray.” Proverbs 12:26

Let’s look at a scenario laid out in Deuteronomy 13:6-8
“If your brother, the son of your mother, your son or your daughter, the wife of your bosom, or your friend who is as your own soul, secretly entices you, saying, ‘Let us go and serve other gods’, which you have not known, neither you nor your fathers, of the gods of the people which are all around you, near to you or far off from you, from one end of the earth to the other end of the earth, you shall not consent to him or listen to him, nor shall your eye pity him, nor shall you spare him or conceal him”

With this, we see that God is to come first. No one who leads us astray is to stay in our lives. We aren’t to put up with anyone who entices us to go against God.

Philippians Four

During our discussions on Philippians 4, we read through verses 11-13 last. We started with verse 2 and worked our way through verse 8.

“I implore Euodia and I implore Syntche to be of the same mind in the Lord. And I urge you also, true companion, help these women who labored with me in the gospel, with Clement also, and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the  Book of Life.” (vs 2-3)
It was pointed out that these women were having some sort of disagreement.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.”  (vs 4-5)
We discussed rejoicing always, what letting our gentleness be known among men looked like, and what was meant by “the Lord is at hand.” That we never know when our time is up?

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” (vs 6-7)
Another discussion summary: Anxiety comes from fear – perfect love casts out fear. God is love – God casts out fear. Not only prayers, but petitions as well. A petition is something we don’t bring to one person one time. We approach the subject several times. Not only will the peace of God comfort us, but will GUARD our hearts and thoughts.

“Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy – meditate on these things.” (vs 8)
Our discussion started to wrap up. We tied all these things to the first few verses. How our focus on all these good things enables us to be of the same mind in the Lord, to rejoice regardless of circumstances, be gentle with all men, not be anxious, and have peace.

“Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (vs 11-13)
This was tied to everything else that was said and we closed the discussions.

Now, why I’m telling you all this is because I still have some thoughts on those last verses that I didn’t speak up and share at the time.

We were just reading about feelings and thoughts. then we hit these scriptures and people immediately tend to resort to physical things – abased and abound, full and hungry, abound and suffer need. I challenge you to consider these in a spiritually light.

Abase: behave in a way so as to belittle or degrade (someone)

How many times have we been abased for our beliefs?
Side note: “Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.” Matthew 5:10-12

Abound: exist in large numbers or amounts

What about those times when we feel very spiritual? Those times when it’s like the floodgates of understanding open.

adjective: containing or holding as much or as many as possible; having no empty space, not lacking or omitting anything; complete
noun: the period, point, or state of the greatest fullness of strength; the height of a period of time

How were those times when you felt secure in God’s word? You read your Bible and feel complete in Him. You are strong and feel spiritually healthy.

Hungry: feeling or displaying the need for food

On the flip side, how were those times when you felt empty and insecure? You still read your Bible, but you don’t feel fed. You feel malnourished and worried. Perhaps you feel you’re in a spiritual desert and under much pressure.

Abound: exist in large numbers or amounts

Do you remember times when you were richly blessed for your obedience? Everything about your life just falls into place and you can hardly believe your good fortune.

Suffer need:
verb: require (something) because it is essential or very important, expressing necessity or obligation, be necessary
noun: circumstances in which something is necessary, or that require some course of action; necessity, a thing that is wanted or required, the state of requiring help, or of lacking basic necessities such as food

Do you remember when you were at your lowest point? You related best to Job then. You had to humble yourself and ask other to come to your aid. You didn’t know where to turn, but you reached out to God first, but also friends and brethren.

You see why I felt there was so much to say. I couldn’t let it go and say nothing. For what it’s worth, you now know my thoughts on those scriptures. I hope I gave you something more to think about.

God bless!

Musing on Moving

Looking over my previous posts, it occurred to me that a huge theme is courage. Being courageous doesn’t come naturally to all people – perhaps, many people. Courage is a choice we can make regardless. Will you do something that makes you uncomfortable? I’m about to. I’m making plans to move out of my parents house for the first time. Not only that, but I’ll be moving to another state. This is huge for me. Constantly, I’m praying and planning and analyzing. God says not to worry, so I’m entrusting everything to Him. I’m applying for many jobs and trusting He’ll get me the position that will best suit me and my needs. I currently have two roommates lined up. Both are lovely, Godly girls. I’m excited to get to know them better and live as a team. The very best news about this move, to me, is that I’ll be joining a church group. These people have known me for several years now and I’m exuberant at the prospect of seeing them weekly! If this plan and undertaking is of man, may it fail, but if it is of God, may no one be able to overthrow it.

This Little Light

I sat beside a bonfire tonight. As the fire burned and embers sprinkled the sky, God guided my thoughts. Picture this: God is the fire, we are the embers. How do I arrive at this conclusion? God ignites a fire in us – all our light comes from Him. We carry that light with us until we die (spiritually or physically). Those embers can die near or far from the fire. At first, I analyzed this as God sending us on journeys, with some learning much and some learning little. Then I thought, what if it’s a matter of dying nearer or farther from God? I’d like to look into this analogy a bit more.