My heart has been crying out to God. Pining after a mission. Sure, I’ve been drawn to character development, helping people, encouraging them, writing, and planning. What does that mean though? As a mom, I can see all of that being exceptionally useful. As a single person or a pre-married person, what can I do? More than that, how could I make a living doing what I feel called to? Please, if you’re reading this and have a suggestion, tell me.
For now, I have been trying several things. I’m writing more. I would like to write children’s books. I’m trying new things. I want to get out of my comfort zone and continue learning. I’m applying for writing jobs online. So far, I’m unsuccessful. My writing isn’t up to par and I have no experience. I’m researching jobs in both my hometown and in Michigan. I want to know where YHWH intends for me to live.
May our Father reveal to me where He would have me be, what He would have me do, and with whom all this is to be.
In my emotional distress today, I opened my Bible and read this:
“For there is hope for a tree, if it be cut down, that it will sprout again, and that its shoots will not cease. Though its roots grow old in the earth, and its stump die in the soil, yet at the scent of water it will bud and put out branches like a young plant. But a man dies and is laid low; man breathes his last, and where is he? As waters fail form a lake and a river wastes away and dries up, so a man lies down and rises not again; till the heavens are no more he will not awake or be roused out of his sleep.” (Job 14:7-12)
I believe, like a tree, we too are sometimes cut down. We feel the wind get knocked out of our lungs and we wonder how we fell so low. But when we rise again, we see sprouts and shoots. We see growth and take heart that we are changed for the better. We may grow old, but when we’re revived by God’s word and Spirit, we will bud and put out branches.
All the same, we do die someday. We breathe our last, lie down and rise not. That way we will stay till the heavens are no more and God rouses us from our slumber.