My heart has been crying out to God. Pining after a mission. Sure, I’ve been drawn to character development, helping people, encouraging them, writing, and planning. What does that mean though? As a mom, I can see all of that being exceptionally useful. As a single person or a pre-married person, what can I do? More than that, how could I make a living doing what I feel called to? Please, if you’re reading this and have a suggestion, tell me.
For now, I have been trying several things. I’m writing more. I would like to write children’s books. I’m trying new things. I want to get out of my comfort zone and continue learning. I’m applying for writing jobs online. So far, I’m unsuccessful. My writing isn’t up to par and I have no experience. I’m researching jobs in both my hometown and in Michigan. I want to know where YHWH intends for me to live.
May our Father reveal to me where He would have me be, what He would have me do, and with whom all this is to be.
Yet again, I find myself wondering what I’m doing with my life. What does God want me to do.
There was a man I met today. He spent a year in Iraq and promised himself he’d never complain about the heat or cold here ever again. Something about him started to make me question what I’m doing with my life.
Before I went to that job, as I worked with my sister, I had the same thought. Am I wasting time? Am I waiting or simply decaying?
I’ll bet most of you have these same questions. I’m sorry I have no answers. All I know is that God has a plan and He promises to be with us. May God steady you, guiding you into the life He wants you to have. May you have the strength and courage to trek onward. Take care, my friends. Don’t forget you do have friends and other people you can turn to for support.
“But those who wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
Waiting is difficult. Sometimes it’s hard to tell if we’re waiting or allowing ourselves to be stagnant. Stagnation creeps up on us. We get comfortable where we are and don’t want to continue farther into the unknown on the less-traveled road.
What are you doing while you wait? Are you continuing steadfastly in prayer, meditation, and fasting? I know I lapse. Even if I do pray, I don’t always pray as fervently as I once did. If I meditate, I don’t focus as easily. If I fast, it’s as though it has no meaning.
The only “cure” I know of is praying to God. Be heart-felt and ask God to renew your desire to pray and meditate; to renew in you the purposeful fasting.
Always, always, always, I consider God the answer. If you lack anything good, God has it. And whatever you ask for, believing you will receive, you will acquire.
Be careful what you ask for, but don’t fear to ask.
May God guide and protect you as you journey on.